reverie

First things first, I'm doing significantly better than I was when I wrote the last post. That hard decision that I talked about in the previous post, well the reasons for that were revealed on Sunday. I wouldn't have been around to cook for the cafe & I wouldn't have been around for church. God knew I needed to be there, so when He asked me to stay he had a very clear purpose. Honestly, I didn't really want to listen, but I'm glad I did. It was so much fun cooking for the cafe on Sunday. And the sermon was crazily dead on to what I needed to hear. "I have not forgotten about you" "sometimes unanswered prayers are the kindness & grace of God in our lives, sometimes the answer is slow, not yet. Not no." Mark also talked about how a few weeks ago he just found himself broken down and sobbing and feeling so alone. I thought, wow that is exactly me last week. One of the things I love so much about my church is the openness of the pas

Seems as though I've been a victim (as many of you have also) of the summer blogging lull. This week's been kinda rough. Not for any one specific reason but enough small-ish things have conspired together to weigh heavily on my heart. I've been feeling really alone lately & that's beyond difficult. Raj was out here over the weekend which was fantastic. But he didn't get into the internship/grad program for which he came out to interview. He says he's cool with it. I'm really sad about it. Maybe it's our shared middle child syndrome, maybe it's that we're the closest in age out of the 4 of us, I don't know, but I feel like I have this special connection with him. And even though we have our little tiffs sometimes and we manage to frustrate each other with the stupidest little things, I was really looking forward to having him out here. I know I can be my worst self around him and in a weird way that actually encourages me to be my

I got a call this afternoon from my dad that my Uncle OP (from India) had passed away last night. He is survived by his wife and two sons. I would appreciate it if you would keep the family in your prayers.