reverie

If you look closely, beyond the rain and the dirt on the window, you can see a rainbow here. It's faint but it's there. I wish I could see it for you. If you can't get past all that mars your vision right now I'm not sure my promise that it's there is enough. But even if you have to wade through a monsoon before you can see it, I'll be here waiting with you for a tiny sliver of sun to break through and offer you a ray of hope. I've been feeling a lot lately that words fall horribly short. I can only say I'm sorry so many times, offer hope so many times. And despite the fact that it's always uttered in sincerity, I know it begins to ring hollow. But the words I feel I most need to say, the beckoning to stop running from God, the one thing that would make all the difference in the world, those are the words that get trapped in my throat. I'm afraid of saying them almost as much as I'm afraid of not saying them. Oh that I would have the...

I turned 25 on Monday. I think the greatest thing about it was that Nicole got Jared Leto to come to my party. ;) Actually the greatest part about it was being surrounded with so much love. I may not have an amazing career, a nice car, a husband & 2.5 kids, or any of the typical measures of "the American Dream," but I have something so much better than all of that. I have the most amazing people in my life. And I know in my head that I am blessed with so many people who love me, but it was so nice to really have that lavished on me this past weekend. With cards & notes & phone calls & hugs & cookies & presents. It was truly wonderful. Here are some photo highlights. Saturday night I had a Fake Asia night for my birthday party. Pretty much that just means an Asian themed party with candy sushi instead of real sushi. It's also funny because I'm half Indian which in my mind makes me Asian, but most people don't consider Indians to ...

Some say it's unnatural. Some say it defies gravity. Some just laugh and shrug their shoulders. Behold Jadyn's mohawk, aka "rockstar hair." Her hair does this of its own volition, my sister & brother-in-law do nothing to encourage it. I find it highly amusing. I hope Jadyn does too when she gets older and looks back at pictures of her 2-year-old self. :)

I hope 2007 has started off nicely for all of you. It has been okay for me so far. I left Houston to spend New Year's Eve in LA. It was fun, but it was hard to leave family and now I am roommateless for the week as Nicole is house-sitting, so I went from being surrounded with people to being home alone. It's not that fun. BUT I am optimistic for this year and have every hope that 2007 will make 2006 look like weak sauce. ;) As mentioned, I spent Christmas in Houston where I got to meet my new, adorable nephew. Here, despite Raj's complaints that a photo blog doesn't count as "real" blogging, I will give you a Christmas photo review. Enjoy! The nephew dressed as Santa, with his best gangsta face & calling his reindeer homies with his gang signs. Ravi got Alaina a Boston hat for Christmas. Jadyn hugging her baby brother. A good old fashioned game of pass the baby. And a good old fashioned game of throw balls of tissue paper at your nieces. That...

Christmas Party 2006 Photo Review good food good friends good friends named Rachel funny faces and baby Jesus I'd say it was a pretty successful party. :)

Jared Robert Routhier born 11-30-2006 10 lbs. 13 oz. 22 3/4" and every bit as adorable as you would expect

Here's a little photo love from the piratical party we went to this weekend in honor of our friend Chris' birthday. That's a real sword I'm holding!

As promised here's a little birthday related photo action getting my paint on at Color Me Mine yay pottery! (it's much darker now that it's been fired) birthday lunch at Red Robin (what? that's how I always dress) Sean & Mike reminiscing about when they used to be mannequins Dad & I fitting in with the mini golf scenery

This is my patented "are you kidding me with this?" look. It has served me quite well over the years. Given the combination of what appears to be just woke up from a nap hair, with the obvious fakeness of that Santa, and how terribly my outfit clashes with the jolly red suit I don't really blame my 2-year-old self for employing said look. :) I hope you all have a delightful Christmas! God bless!

Last night marked the delightful advent of Nicole and Azina's 2nd Annual Christmas Extravaganza. So many people showed up, it was quite wonderful. I had an enjoyable time and we got such a great response from everyone. :) It's so fun to plan something and then to see it come to fruition. I was thinking about that in church today as we were singing about heavenly host rejoicing at the birth of Christ. At first I asked myself, why were they so excited? They set it in motion. They knew it was coming. And as so many thoughts were floating through my mind about our party still, it really struck me. It's fun to plan things and to arrange everything just how you hope it to be, but to see it all work out is quite exciting. So I began to imagine God and the angels chilling in heaven as he explains the master plan- the greatest, most important & amazing plan to take place ever. Heaven is filled with anticipation and wonder. And then the night comes and a baby is bor...

Thanksgiving 2005 photo highlights :) I heart aprons (for real I do) After Nicole & I spent half the day cooking I still had enough energy to school Shannon in Spoons. Just kidding, I only said that because he doesn't actually read this. ;) I took an early lead, but it came down to the 2 of us and was tied going into the last round. I did win though. :) fun girls in our fun little apartment Nicole & Seth looking all deep in thought