my heart hurts right now, not sure I can take too much more of this endurance stuff. I started writing a poem here but it just got too personal and these lyrics from Skillet more eloquently express some of what I'm feeling right now anyway. The song is "Imperfection" off the Collide album.

You're worth so much
It'll never be enough
To see what you have to give
How beautiful you are
Yet seem so far from everything
You're wanting to be
You're wanting to be

Tears falling down again
Tears falling down

You fall on your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour
Your heart in every hour
You're drowning in your imperfection

You mean so much
That heaven would touch
The face of humankind for you
How special you are
Revel in your day
You're fearfully and wonderfully made
You're wonderfully made

Tears falling down again
Come let the healing begin

You fall on your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour
Your heart in every hour
You're drowning in your imperfection

You're worth so much
So easily crushed
Wanna be like everyone else
No one escapes
Every breath we take
Dealing with our own skeletons, skeletons

You fall on your knees
You beg, you plead
Can I be somebody else
For all the times I hate myself?
Your failures devour
Your heart in every hour
You're drowning in your imperfection

Won't you believe, yeah
Won't you believe, yeah
All the things I see in you

You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Drowning in imperfection