reverie

and so it ends Last night was our final banquet for this LA semester. It was a good night, particularly going to the beach afterward, which I really did not want to do, save for the fact that Jared wanted to, but it turned out to be pretty fun. Last night Garret left, which is okay since I hate him. ;) Then this morning we dropped Jared off at the airport. It was sad. And tomorrow Shauna and Nate leave. The penta is officially dispersed. Though goodbye is not forever, it is still hard to leave. And now I should pause the dwelling or I will never get anything done today.

I need to get a billboard Right now the billboard would say, "Answers to all your questions are coming." Later the billboard would hopefully say, "Azina has graduated college and is working at ________. She has a really cool job." Note: the blank in the future billboard update indicates that slacking is not the result of the update not occurring. There simply is no information to provide, thus making any sort of an update a gross waste of time. As soon as I have information to fill in the blank, I will gladly let you know. (I am appreciative that people are interested enough in my life to ask me what my plans are, but it gets frustrating having to answer that question 12 times a day when I do not have an answer. It's bad enough trying to answer for my own peace of mind, let alone everyone else's curiosity.)

Indian food extravaganza The shindig went off quite well. Michael Smith showed up, which was an unexpected surprise. For those of you who don't know, Michael Smith is one of our professors. He is cool, but his personality is kind of blah at first, so it takes a little work. I did not think he was going to be here tonight. Now that I think of it he is somewhat like me, more of an observer often than a participant. I often enjoy just listening to conversations and not taking part in them until I feel it is absolutely necessary for me to say something. I wonder if people find me difficult to get to know. I have been told I am mysterious, but I kinda like that, so maybe it is okay. Shauna came over at 2 to help. She was a big help. Jared rolled pooris for me which was cool. I started cooking at 1, dinner was around 8. It was a long day, but a good one. After a good deal of bad stress in the past few days, today was uber good stress, so that makes the world better. Now...

I have been unusually stressed of late . . . I think it has something to do with the LA experience AND the whole undergrad business being practically over. Yay for the end of school, but then comes the ever popular question of what in the world am I doing next? For those of you wondering, no freakin' clue. If you feel like being helpful, you could pray about it, that'd be awesome. Maybe in the next few days God will hit me over the head with something because if he's been trying to show me where to go next, I'm not seeing it right now. Other than that trouble, there is the saying goodbye, which I think I've already covered, see the previous entry. That is weighing heavily on me as well. On a happier note, going home will mean seeing people I have not seen in a long time, which will be good. And going back for graduation will mean seeing friends whom I miss and haven't seen since December, and Steve whom I haven't seen since October. So that's...

thus begins the bittersweet . . . So it is officially my last day of working for free. (Hazaa!) But of course that means the saying goodbye part looms ever closer. (the un-Hazaa!) The emotional arc has come full swing, and I am over the brief period of hating LA, except for the wretched drivers, and having to look up parking options whenver going anywhere because it is not sufficient to just have directions to places, and the craptastic air that makes me NEED clarinex, and the horrible feeling that if I go anywhere alone especially at night I will not come back alive . . . Yes, I am being overly dramatic for emphasis, although honestly I do not go anywhere by myself at night, which could pose a problem should I move here by myself. Anyway, this has actually been a most excellent semester, especially because of three very cool people. Shauna whom Jared used to refer to as my other half. She is the coolest and I consider her a kindred spirit. She has become a dear friend. The...

Welcome . . . This is officially the first entry. Hooray. I figured that seeing how I don't manage to waste enough time as it is, I would add another potentially daily activity to my life. It should be fun. Watch for flying monkeys.